ok.. back to reality!! friends come and go.. it's part
and parcel of life.. but true friends will always remain
in our hearts no matter wat.. we're gonna be so not used
to so many things when that person is not around.. maybe
the feeling will get stronger when it's his/her birthday,
or even when we're alone, doing something that we used to
do together..
i'm not feeling extremely sad that my friends are leaving
because i know they'll be taking a better path in life and that
they'll achieve what they want.. in fact, i'm glad they're
leaving.. i believe it's a good experience and that they'll
be back as a better man.. just dont shock me too much
with great absolute changes like blonde long hair,
marilyn manson's style or things liddat.. i cant take it k..
i'll faint in front of u!!
anyway.. i know things are gonna be hard for you, ben..
just try your best to blend in.. be yourself (not the burping
part).. stay happy and cheerful.. i'll be there for you..
i cant promise always.. but i'll try yah? keep in contact..
3 years will be over soon..
"I've learned that things change, people change, and it
doesn't mean you forget the past or try to cover it up.
It simply means that you move on and treasure the memories.
Letting go doesn't mean giving up it means accepting that
some things weren't meant to be."
"Beginnings are usually scary, endings are usually sad,
but the middle is what really counts!"
"Sometimes our trusting hand that guides us through
life won't always be there, and that's the time when you
really grow up and face life for the first time. But that
hand will always be close by."
+wen
11:51 PM
another chapter of our lives is starting.. i'm scared..
afraid of changes.. looking back, i realise how things
have changed and how we've all matured with time..
to think about it, images of primary school days are
still clearly etched in my mind.. memories do stay,
especially good ones.. i believe it'll remain forever..
remember during primary school, most of my weekends are
spent watching power rangers, smurfs, transformers,
ninja turtles, n my fav captian planet!! my fav special
power was water!! always try to wake up early to catch
these great shows..
remember the days when we grew up brushing our
teeth during recess. i will squat by the drain with all
my classmates beside me, and brush my teeth with a
coloured mug (mine was red if i'm not wrong.. i'm from
red house!!). the teachers said you must brush each side
10 times.. -_-'' not like we all care.. haha..
remember i was very much
underweight then and ordering
40 cents chocolate or strawberry milk was a must!!! i
remember how much i used to hate it because it's not cold..
friends never fail to help me finish it when the teacher
was not looking.. awwwwww.. guess i'll never be underweight
again in my life.. still able to recall how my friends
used to piggyback me around and they'll say, "jia wen...
you're so light...". now? no longer manz.. sobz..
SBS buses used to be non-airconditioned. The bus seats
are made of wood and the cushion is red. The big red bell
gives a loud BEEEP! when pressed. There are colourful
tickets for TIBS buses.The conductor will check for
tickets by using a machine which punches a hole in the ticket.
i miss Charity Elephant!! donation envelops will be
given to us during children's day, asking for donation.
but i usually keep the envelop coz i thing it's sooooo
cute...
days after exams are the best.. my classmates will bring
their barbie doll house to sch, polly pockets, connect 4,
chess (both chinese n english), 5 stones, skipping ropes,
paper dolls n much much more!!! what busy time.. our
schedules are packed with activities.. including watching
bibles stories in AVA room!!! i just simply loves them..
yes, jesus loves me; for the bible tells me so.. haha..
remember such greenery in school.. even our uniform is
green..
not forgetting the 15 cents crackers and the lollipop
is the diamond on the ring. chewing gum was not banned
back then..
i dont read books.. but nancy drew, famous 5, sweet
valley were the thickest books my friends read.. i did
try reading.. but always fall aslp without fail..
the most common vulgarity i said in primary sch was
'stupid idiot'!!! never know more than that.. so innocent
rite? haha.. still is lar..
remember my school days are so full of life in the early
morning b4 assembly.. people go to sch early to play
monkey-bars, balancing beam etc.. n i was so gd at it..
until i fell one day.. then never dare to play again..
i'll just climb the super steep hill beside the monkey-bars..
such loser rite? haha..
playing catching was the IN thing and twist as the
magic word..
my notes were made of recycled paper.. those yellow
and rough ones.. always have holes after too much
erasing.. i still keep some.. haha..
my mum used to make me carry those waterbottles that
were slinged around my neck and it's a must everywhere
i go.. arghz.. look so swakoo.. i hate it..
science is always interesting and cool.. with the balsam
and the angsana being the most important plants of
our lives, guppies and swordtail being the most important
fish.
We carry out experiments of our own to get
ourself badges for being a Young Zoologist/Botanist etc.
Every children's day and national day you either get
pins or pens with 'Happy Children's Day 1993' or dumb
files with Happy National Day 1994'. but i do use them..
haha..
in pri 5 i'll bring the pri 1s for recess.. help them
buy food and all.. like a big sister.. haha.. i remember
when i was pri 1 my big sister's name is xueping..
n when i'm in pri 5 my little sister was an indian..
-_-.. i only help her for the first 2 days.. after
that i always run away.. haha.. i'm a racist!!
We wore Panda, BM2000, BATA or Pallas shoes then moved
on to Paichi & US Masters in sec school. hmm.. not really
lar.. i wore track shoes in sec sch.. i've got a cool sch..
haha..
School dismissal time was normally around 1 pm. how i miss
it manz..
friends considered you lucky and rich if your parents
gave you $3 or more for pocket money everyday.
i hate it when the teacher asks us to line up according
to height.. i'm always the first.. arghz.. is juz like
when ur sgt asks u to stand in front during NDP or
passing out parade.. damn sian diao one lor.. and
i remember we have to line up after recess everyday..
got to stand under the hot sun until the teacher says
we can go.. summore muz go by class.. can die manz..
hot like mad.. and one fine day.. no teacher come n dismiss
us.. den everybody stand there like idiots.. so being
teh nice girl.. i asked the first ger of the first class
to go lar.. n guess wat? got asked to go to 6A(first class)
in the middle of my lessons and got scolded for being
MISS NG (we called teachers by miss blah blah blah or mrs
lalala wat)... so paiseh lor.. i still remember the teacher
who scolded me.. miss huan.. i can forgive but cannot
forget her!!! hahah..
catching caterpillars is our fav activity in upper pri..
for a period of time, dont know why, smps suddenly has
lots n lots of caterpillars.. we'll bring bottles to
sch to catch them.. then use paper to cover the opening
n poke holes so as to let them breathe.. they turn into
larves very soon.. damn gross.. haha..
Autograph books were loaded with "Best Wishes", "Forget Me
Not", and small poems like "Bird fly high, hard to catch.
Friend like you, hard to forget".
Class monitress,prefects loved to say "You talk somemore, I
write your name ah!"
i used to run to the tv in 1988-89 whenever they play "Count on
Me Singapore" and "We are Singapore" and sing those songs
with such passionate feelings and pride to be a Singaporean.
to think back.. i think i look like some
bai chi to my parents..
oh manz.. i really hope to turn back time and be much
younger.. time when i dun need to worry about anything..
play like not knowing what die means.. climb up n down
not knowing what fall means..
ok.. this entry is really long.. wonder how many actually
bother to finish reading this.. anyway.. i just want to
tell the whole world how much i enjoyed my primary sch days!!!
i feel so blessed.. keke..
+wen
9:55 PM
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1 full week of work. how sickening. i totally understand
why 9 out of 10 girls want to be tai tai. how nice to
be able to shop with unlimited supply of money.. hehz..
right.. i'm dreaming lar.. but it's always dreams that
keep us going what..
anyway, i think i'll be out of job soon.. maybe 2nd july?
still not confirm.. i'm really glad that it's coming to
an end.. i dont care about the money anymore. i want
to slack. i need a break!! staring at the computer screen
the whole morning and afternoon is definitely not fun at all..
having to check ten thousands over accounts a day is really
sucky.. and the impatient me just cant sit still for
goodness sake.. never miss going to the toilet like once
every hour? and taking my own sweet time to check an account..
i'll stare at the greenery outside the window and
start stoning until i feel like it, then continue with my
monotonuous work.. haha.. i quite pity my employer lar..
to have such a lazy employee like me is just his luck..
but it's not only me k? the other 17 or 18 pple r just as bad..
or even worse.. haha.. i'm considered the better few.. keke..
i guess most are preparing for a brand new semester / start
of school (poly).. wonder how i'll feel as the day draws near
for me.. well.. we shall see.. haiz..
+wen
10:19 PM
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got my pay today!!! hehz.. $771.00.. therefore, i've
got $772.17 in my bank this afternoon.. erm.. but
right now.. it's left with $502.17.. returned my mum
& sis money.. shall try to keep it there for awhile
b4 i spend the money..
my colleagues were shocked to hear that i'm left
with $1.17 in my bank.. they were like.. "where did
all your previous pay go to? u never save one ar?"
and then the super shocked face again.. haha..
i din know they actually save a portion of their
pay one.. i thought they spend more than me.. ok..
i'm wrong.. i'll save too..
+wen
9:29 PM
alright.. i've received a rejection letter from smu
yesterday and an offer letter from SIM today.. SIM
requires me to pay
$4200 plus by 26th june.. damn it
manz.. wat's the rush? where to get so much money at such
short notice? madness.. makes me feel so bad for
not studying hard and now having to make my parents
spend so much on me.. guilty to the max manz.. sigh..
anyway.. SIM is not a sure thing.. after paying the money
they still have to process to see if we meet the
requirements.. so the place is not confirmed..
i hate to think about university-related stuffs..
how i wish this will never be a subject that bothers me..
ok.. i dun even know how much is my tuition fees per year
for SIM.. and it seems quite a big sum.. told my mum
about it.. and now.. she was asking if i want to go
aboard.. since applying for a study loan is a must..
but i'm sure going aboard will b a much heavier burden
to my parents.. somebody plz tell me how much do i need
to spend aboard per year.. including living cost..
is it too late to apply for a foreign university?
i'm sure most pple have alrd applied.. does that mean
i've to join them nxt semester or something..
arghz.. headache.. dont want to think about it already..
it's enough.. oh manz..
ntu plz take me!!!
+wen
7:05 PM
stole this from chang's blog..
| How to make a Jia Wen |
| Ingredients:
1 part competetiveness
1 part ambition
1 part instinct |
Method:
Layer ingredientes in a shot glass. Add a little lovability if desired! |
Personality cocktailFrom
Go-Quiz.com
+wen
12:44 AM
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couldnt concentrate at all during work today because
someone asked me about uni stuffs and it sets me thinking..
to think about it, i really do not have a backup
plan.. i'm juz taking a step at a time.. it's going
to be the end of the month.. sigh.. just hoping for
the best..
well.. it's going to be tuesday the 22nd june tmr..
have been looking forward to tomorrow for very long coz
it's
pay day!!! yay!! i've been living with
$1.17 in my bank for quite a long time.. finally i
can see 5 digits in my bank account (including decimals)..
keke.. hmm.. should be going to town tmr.. getting
polo tees from fila.. they're having sale.. oh no..
i've already thought of how to spent all the money..
that's bad.. lets see what we can eliminate..
this is my shopping list:
mp3 player ($300)
fila polo tees ($40)
a skirt from zara ($60)
slippers ($30)
guess skirt ($120); still thinking about it
and i need to return my sis & my mum money..
yepz.. that's about it.. my money should be gone in
2 weeks.. i shall think of which to eliminate to save
money.. omg.. i'm hopeless manz.. kk.. will try to
save...
+wen
9:30 PM
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thank god that today's weather was good.. it's such a great,
sunny day.. went tanning with jieshi and my sister.. sentosa
was so crowded even during the early hours.. but we still manage
to get some tanning done.. left the place at ard 12.30pm..
suppose to meet zhexian after that.. something screwed up.. so
i met wanhua instead first den meet zhexian.. it's always nice
to see with good old friends.. there are always endless things
to talk about and to be updated..
arghz.. work tmr.. i really dread it.. help.. hope it'll
be fine.. hehz.. my brain isnt working too well now.. need rest..
and irc is forever so cock up.. well.. i'm off to sleep..
nitez to all..
+wen
1:11 AM
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omg.. my blog is quite screwed.. i tried to change the template
by myself.. n see wat i've done.. sobz.. nvm.. shall ask angel
for help tmr.. for now i need slp.. zzzzz..
+wen
2:49 AM
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i did nothing at work today.. slept,
played cards, talked crap.. nothing related
to my work at all.. didnt even
touch the computer.. where to get
such good job right? haha.. time
seems to be crawling when i was at work..
well.. chang left for sydney this morning..
he should be there by now.. so envious
of him manz.. holiday.. i oso want!!
anyway.. i'm feeling so vexed now..
cant help but to ask myself so many questions
regarding my studies.. what if my appeal
doesnt get through? is SIM really a
good alternative? what if i regret my
choice? haiz.. is it better to heed
felicia's advice as to take a higher
diploma and try to apply for uni again
next year? omg.. i hate to reach
such a stage in life where things
start to change so drastically and where
every decision is so crucial..
well.. i shall try not to think too
much..
+wen
10:29 PM
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boring day indeed.. ok.. at least
i went jogging.. well.. heather called
me in the morning to ask if i'm
interested to work on sunday.. and
i agreed on account of the money..
arghz.. my sunday is burned.. will
be at lucky plaza teaching people
( most probably those philippino
maids.. coz it's sunday ) how to
download logos n stuffs.. oh manz..
how friendly and helpful yah? hur hur..
ok.. i'm paid to do it..
well.. i shall slp now.. tired..
nitez pretty world.. hope tmr will be
more exciting..
+wen
11:40 PM
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ritez.. the day was fine.. did the
usual stuffs.. what a boring life
i lead.. sigh.. anyway.. i got to
work tomorrow!!! while some others
can slack and do what they like..
course the office does not need so many
people now.. there arent really
much things to do there.. so they
asked us to take a break.. but.. the 'us'
doesnt includes me.. arghz.. maybe they
think i'm a good employee.. ha.. what
crap.. so it's just a handful of us
working tomorrow.. the place will be
so much more 'peaceful'.. i do not like
this kind of peacefulness.. i prefer
chaos.. hope the day will pass as fast
as ever like any other days..
rg.. when are you free? meet up? when?
oh manz.. to think about it.. so many people
around me are leaving.. as in for
another country.. i've got a bad omen
that i'll soon be friendless.. sobz..
how?
is totally like everyone will soon take
their own path in life.. will there
still be time for reunion? i hope so manz..
i hate to grow up!! having to face the
cruel reality of adulthood is just so
annoying.. independence is essential
for survival.. but look at me now..
there's still so much to learn.. and
i'm still so dependent on the people
around me.. i dread it..
i want to fold grasshoppers.. but where
to get coconut leaves? i want to master
the skill of this art.. haha.. ok..
shall find a way to get those leaves..
+wen
11:17 PM
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everything went on smoothly as planned
this morning.. visited ntu with liping
to enquire more about the ntu appeal..
didnt really get much help but lucky us,
the clerk was quite nice.. she did
answer our questions.. however the admssion
part and decision part doesnt lies with
her.. got to go through another committee..
haiz.. got to wait again.. it's such
a torture..
met s29 peeps in school to collect cert
after the ntu trip.. had heng heng for
lunch.. it's so heavenly.. long long time
never eat liao.. alright.. nothing much..
shopped in town the whole afternoon..
long time never go town.. felt like a
country bumpkin.. happy to be there once
again to catch the Great Singapore Sale..
well.. acted quite auntie today.. coz
Fila shop has got good buy.. t-shirts
going at $10.. tat's very cheap.. and
they're not bad.. haha.. felt so guity
as to mess up the whole pile of shirts
juz to find the ones i wanted.. arghz..
nvm.. jia wen has never been a very nice
girl all these while..
walked around town.. had pastamania and
crystal jade.. everything was great today..
the company was good, the food was good,
the things i bought was good.. what more can
i ask for right? hehz.. yah.. really
enjoyed myself.. i hope everyone does too..
congrats to jj for getting into ocs as you
wished.. poon, dan, kel n hk, i'm sure you
all will survive blsc like bmt and get posted
out of tekong soon.. enn the rifleman.. haha
dont know what u really do there.. so just
be glad it's no longer tekong n stay tough..
chao.. poor thing.. just jiayou and continue
to slim down and stay fit.. hahaha.. (not
like he'll see this)
+wen
1:02 AM
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10 rounds on lane 7 todae..
oso did 100 crunches and much
stretching.. haiz.. but i tink
it has all gone to waste..
met the guys for supper juz now..
ate so much lor.. stingray, some
shell seafood (la la), you tiao,
sesame paste, popiah, 2 drinks,
hao jian ( the oyster with egg )..
omg.. waste my time doing all the
runs.. shall eat fruits the nxt
few days to compensate.. haha..
aniwae.. gonna apply SIM on fridae..
haiz.. dunno wat course to take..
hey rg.. if i happen to get there,
we can go sch tgt liao.. hehz..
however, i still hoping to get
into ntu.. anticipating ntu's letter..
plz take mi!!! =(
my life sux.. i hate it when i have
to worry abt sth n yet i cant do
anything abt it.. haiz..
+wen
12:07 AM
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